Sunday, November 23, 2014

Gratitude Journal – Day 145 – November 23, 2014

TimeHop…
time travel? Evenings would find us relaxing in the living room, settling in to watch a movie. ‘Baby’ I hear him whisper as he gently gives me three little kisses on my cheek, ‘are you coming to bed?’ Did I sleep through another movie, I ask myself as I slowly open my eyes and see his portrait hanging on the wall. It was all a dream…
Exhausted, I fell asleep on the couch last night – only to be awoken (is that really a word?) by the notification on TimeHop. I slept right through writing my gratitude journal for the next day, today. The whirling sound of grinding coffee fills the kitchen, soon to be replaced by the wonderful aroma as I pour myself a cup in a Waffle House mug.
And as I look through the photos and posts on TimeHop, I am once again reminded of the charmed life God blessed us with.
- 5 years ago I wrote, ‘it doesn’t get any better than this! First evening of vacation spent here at Bradley’s with myDarlin’ Robert and good friends!’ (frame of reference – music/jam)
- 4 years ago – a photo of myDarlin’ and me laughing at the Grateful Dead Jam at Bella’s Pizzeria
- 2 years ago I wrote – Remembering a special friend, Miss Ruby, this afternoon. Please join us if you are able to. (frame of reference – wonderful friend who used to get up to sing a couple of songs with our friend’s band)
- 1 year ago – myDarlin’ making paella and all of us working on tie dye at Leilani’s Tie Dye Factory.
I think back on the many conversations we had, and when I say many – he would have told you that I never stopped talking. ‘We have a good life’, he would say and I would agree saying, ‘I wish people realized how easy it can be.’
myDarlin’ Robert Kenui Pope was always intrigued by the movies of time travel, such as Time Machine, Back to the Future, Message in a Bottle, Somewhere in Time and many others, so when I chose the movie About Time last year he was good with the choice. (Although I don’t remember exactly which one, I’m sure that he was foregoing an action movie for me…) A young man is informed by his Father that the men in the family have the ability to go back in time to relive any moment they want. And the movie trailer began with the graphic, ‘What if you could relive every moment until it was perfect?’
As I ponder that exact question, I am tempted to say yes, that would be awesome….. but then, what would be the purpose? Is life about being perfect, or being the best that you can be? There is only one perfect being, and none of us will ever be him. God challenges us every day to make a conscious effort do our best and to be our best. It is not about going through life half-heartedly knowing that we could get a ‘do-over’ at any time. And as the main character in the movie realized, there are some things that can never be changed, he made a choice to never engage time travel to change the outcome of a moment. The last line of the movie rang out in the quiet theatre (and yes, hard to believe I stayed awake the entire time…) as we held hands. ‘I try to live everyday as if it were the final day of my extraordinary ordinary life.’
Today, I am filled with gratitude as I remember myDarlin’s and my shared approach to life. A life of total trust in God and one another, undying love for family and friends – creating Ohana, living by the motto work hard – play hard, living every day in the moment – no do-overs, and pursuing our dreams. And the only time travel that I wish for is not to go back in time, but that when my time comes I will be with myDarlin’ again, snapping photos of his smiling face as he plays in God’s House Band.


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