Tradition…
most are good, right? Maybe so, maybe not… As I review the Timehop, II see a recurring theme during the days immediately before the dreaded April 15th, as in I’m still working on it. Tonight as I sat down at the computer, I paused to remember the many years gone by and the laughs that we shared while preparing our taxes.
Funny how preparing taxes is ranking right up there with holidays and events. For this year is the beginning and the end; first time I will file with you not here by my side, and the last time that I will ever file a joint return with you myDarlin’ Robert Kenui Pope. I close my eyes and think back to last year, we’re both sitting in bright yellow Naugahyde chairs at our matching desks laughing and carrying on, knowing that we will reward ourselves for making it through by going to dinner afterward. (That is if we had any $$ left, and ‘whew!’ we did – even if just barely)
Before I hit submit, I open my eyes only to realize that you have taken your place in the heavens flying with the angels. And my laptop screensaver is the Acceptance photo that God gave to us only a year prior; except for tonight there is something strange about it. I can hardly believe my eyes as I look for the source of the sunlight that has spilled light upon the screen, but it is a rainy day and there is no sun streaming through the window. I think to myself, it must be the light of the room and so I turn off the lights… the rays are still there. I move the draperies on the window looking for movement, they’re still there…. I take a photo, thinking that perhaps it’s just my imagination – still there. I walk to the living room to look at the large print of the photo and it is not there, and then I stop to ask myself why I doubt the rays of light, of hope, of acceptance and I say out loud, thank you myDarlin’ for the sign.
And just as I profess my belief that the ray of light in the photo is real, I walk back over to my laptop and it is gone. Tonight I am filled with gratitude that even as I approach this and other challenging times in my life, you are myAngel, a ray of hope, of light, of love that will carry me through the days of my life. And with faith and trust in the Lord, I will continue my walk until I am with you once again.
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