Wednesday, October 29, 2014

Gratitude Journal – Day 122 – October 30, 2014

Not my job…
changing the oil, determining when to buy tires, setting up home entertainment game centers, backing up iPhones…..And so he asked me one day, when are you going to put the decal that you got last year in Hawaii on your car window? That’s not my job I replied, and he laughed….
It took a lifetime to find myDarlin', Robert Kenui Pope, someone that I could totally trust with my heart and every other part of my life. And as I let go, I found myself depending more and more on him for things that he was good at, and he on me for things I did well. And so, car decals were not my gig.
The tire slowly lost air and required filling up at the pump at least weekly. And she said to me as I dropped off Malibu Barbie, When was your last oil change? I’m not sure, that’s not my job I replied. When were your tires last replaced? I don’t know, that’s not my job. You see, in days past I would simply switch vehicles with myDarlin’ for a week and let him ‘take care of’ all of ‘those things’ that were not my job.
As I walked through the double glass doors of a shop he loved so, she asked for
my name and the purpose of my visit. Sheri, I replied. I’d like to purchase the iPhone 6. I know that myDarlin’ was right by my side, giddy with anticipation at a new piece of technology. And then, the thing that almost kept me from buying it, the question….. When was your iPhone last backed up Sheri? I don’t know, that’s not my job I replied.
I haven’t really ‘watched’ TV in so long, that it seemed crazy to keep cable – so I
had it turned off, and had a high speed data connection installed. The immediate impact was that I couldn’t watch anything on the TV for obvious reasons. And the Netflix no longer worked either as the password to the internet had changed. And so it sat…. the smart TV with a blank screen on the mantle gazed upon by a not so technically savvy me.
And so, it is now up to me, and I can hear myDarlin’ say, “I can see you’re frustrated, why don’t you take a break and come back to it?” I take a big breath, then had the oil changed, bought new tires and brakes, bought the iPhone and backed it up, and even figured out how to connect the smart TV to the internet.
Today I am filled with gratitude as I remember all of the things that myDarlin’ did for me on a daily basis, how he truly took care of me. And if you ask me, when I am going to put the decal that we got in Hawaii last year on my car window, I will still reply, that’s not my job as I look to the heavens and say I love you myDarlin’.


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