Monday, September 22, 2014

Gratitude Journal – Day 85 – September 23, 2014

Things we said today….
…today there would have been 3,556 days to go on our Ten Year Plan of moving to Hawaii. myDarlin’ Robert Kenui Pope, it is hard to believe that you have been gone for three months now. The last text I sent to you was at 9:32AM on Sunday, June 22nd as we were at church, and you were on stage practicing. It read, ‘3,646’.
You say you will love me, if I have to go.
You’ll be thinking of me, somehow I will know.
Someday when I’m lonely, wishing you weren’t so far away,
Then I will remember, the things we said today.
I play the video clip that you sent to me one morning every day. “Good morning Baby, I love you” and reply, I love you too myDarlin’. The things we said today….
I picked up your things from work myDarlin’ and went to the kitchen to say hello. I told them I was there for your Saints mug, as I knew none of them would want it. And this morning, I fixed a cup of real coffee in your honor and raised it to your memory. Who dat! Yes, things we said today.
As I left work, headed to the Aloha Open Mic, and pulled onto the ramp to the expressway – I can still hear myself saying, “I will follow you.” And if I close my eyes, I can still see you pulling the trailer towards going towards home. Wait! It would be a bad thing if I closed my eyes while driving, so I’ll just imagine… Yes, Imagine – your favorite word. Things we said today…
Today is much like any other day; except for you’re not here. And I stand in the corner where you last sat, watching the stage you were watching that day, with the songs coming one right after the other. I can’t stop loving you, Are you lonesome tonight and Blue Hawaii all sung as the life-size cardboard Elvis on a surfboard looks on. Dreams come true in Blue Hawaii.
I pull into our driveway marked by the Kona flags you had made last year, walk down the drive to check the mail, then up the path to the front door. I gently slide my key in the lock, open the door and say “Honey, I’m home!” and blow three kisses your way. Things we said today….
As the sun set today, I know surely that it will rise again tomorrow. And though I miss you more than words can express, I know that God’s plan is in motion and you are a big part of it. I am filled with gratitude that the Lord brought us together myDarlin, my soul mate, to experience a once in a lifetime love that many never get to know. I close my eyes and can hear you singing.
Follow me, everything is all right,
I'll be the one to tuck you in at night….


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